Lately, I can't sleep. I see his face at night and in my dreams. This keeps me up at night, making my 8 am A and P classes so hard to function in. It needs to stop, but I know only time will allow these nightmares to go away. I feel him at work and in school watching me, he is miles away, but I feel him. I know someday I will be able to function again, but when? I'll wait patiently for the tears to fall, the guilt to run, and my soul to feel free again. Until then, I will keep living and loving others no matter how hard it is. I have to fight off the insecurities that push me away from friends and family. I need to talk sometimes and cry, scream, yell, sob sometimes. I am strong, but I will let my weakness make me stronger! Sorry for you who are reading this. I am really just trying to make myself move on.