Had a security system installed in my home today.  I am anticipating retaliation for calling the police and filing charges.  I know this won't keep me 100% safe, but in my home, it will help.  As I stood there listening to the instructions, an anxiety attack hit.  This was really surprising to me.  I thought there would be relief and a sense of taking back control of my safety.  Instead I felt overwhelming anxiety and sadness that it has come to this.  Never in a million years would I have put a security system in my home.  The realization that I even need one is really hard to fathom.  Can anyone tell me how they are coping with the day-to-day existence of their perpetrator walking around free?  How do you get past the paralyzing fear?