I hate you. Sometimes all I can think of is how you hurt me. Sometimes I want to track you down and pay you back, hurt you like you hurt me or worse. Sometimes I am full of rage and have to hit something. Sometimes I am cringing in fear, as if you are still with me. Sometimes I am afraid, when it feels like you are hurting me again. Sometimes I feel like dirt, used, like I am not worth anything. Sometimes I can't stand being with people who know me because I am afraid they will find out about my secret. Sometimes I feel so alone. Even though there are people who love me and want to do whatever they can to help, they don't understand.Sometimes it just gets so frustrating. Sometimes I can't even seem to be able to fill out a simple job application without being reminded about what happened to me. Sometimes I hate myself. Why am I so weak? Sometimes I feel so helpless, which I swore to myself would never happen again.