Thanks to you now I can't sleep. Now I can barely hang out with my friends for fear of what they would say if they knew. Thanks to you now I hurt almost every day. Thanks to you hardly a night goes by without a nightmare, or a day without a flashback. Why did you have to hurt me like that? What did I ever do to you? I didn't want you to do that to me. I trusted you! I was just a little boy, little boys do not deserve that nor do they want that kind of attention. I thought you cared for me. You say you did and still do? That was not caring for me that was using me for your own twisted and evil desires. Thanks to you I can't get close to anyone and I don't think I ever will be able to do so ever again. Thanks to you now I cry at night so noone will see the pain I'm in. Thanks to you I can't even imagine being in love never mind even having a normal relationship with anyone I would care about had you not done what you did to me.