I'VE JUST HAD THE MOST HORRIBLE FLASH BACKS AND SORTOF STILL AM ITS OFF TWP OFF THE TIMES HE ABUSED ME

THIS TIME HE ONLY PENATRATED ME FOR UNDER A MINIT BUT ITS THE MOST FORSFULL TIME HE EVER HURT ME I CAN SEE HIM I CAN SMELL HIM I CAN EVEN FUKIN FEEL HIM DOWN BELOW I CAN FEEL THE PENATRATION HIS HANDS ALL OVER ME PINNING ME DOWN TO HIS BED HIS BREATH ON MY FACE AS HE FORCES HIMSELF INSIDE ME I DONT KNOW WHERE IT CAME FROM BUT I HAD THE STRENGTH TO PUSH HIM OFF IM THINKING RUN FOR THE DOOR BUT THEN I REMEMBER THE STEEL BARS HE HAS ACCROSS THE FROUNT DOOR THAT HAVE A HEAVY PADLOCK BOLTING THEM SHUT THE KEY HIDDEN HE THROGHS ME BACK ON THE BED MY SUDDEN STRENGHTH GONE HE HOLDS ME DOWN AND PUS HIS FINGERS INSIDE ME THEN WALKS INTO THE FROUNT ROOM OFF THE FLAT AND LEAVES ME THERE I GO THROUGH KNOWING I CANT GET OUT HE SPARKS  UP A JOINT/SPLIFF HAS A FEW PULLS AND OFFERS ME SOME AS IF WHAT HE HAD JUST DONE WAS NORMAL AND OK.

THE OTHER ONE IS OF THE LAST TIME HE DONE IT TO ME I TOOK MY FRIEND ROUND THERE KNOWING WHAT HE WAS LIKE SHE WAS TIRED AND WENT TO SLEEP ON HIS BED AND I DIDNT WARN HER BUT HE WAS TO INTERESTED IN RAPING ME TO BOTHER WITH HER HE PICKS ME UP AND TAKES ME TO THE BATHROOM AND FORCES DOWN MY TROUSERS TOCHES ME THERE I STRUGGLE TO GET HIM OFF AND TELL HIM NO HE DOES NOT LISTEN I RUSH THROUGH TO THE FROUNT ROOM PASSING THE FROUNT DOOR IN THE KITHCEN REMEMBERING THE BARS AGAIN SO I RUSH THROUGH TO THE FROUNT ROOM AND SIT ON THE SOFA HOPIN HE WILL LEAVE ME NOW BUT HE GRABS MY LEGS AND PULLS ME ONTO THE FLOOR AND AGAIN FORCES MY TROUSERS DOWN ALREADY GOT AN ERECTION AT MY STRUGGLING AND FEAR HE PULLS OUT MY TAMPON AND HE FORCES HIMSELF INTO ME AND I STOP STRUGGLING PARALISED IN FEAR TRYING TO BLOCK WHAT HE WAS DOING TO ME WHEN MY FRIEND TURNS ON THE TV IN THE BEDROOM HE WALKS OFF TO WIPE THE BLOOD OFF HIS PENIS WHILE I HAVE TO PUT THE SAME TAMPON BACK IN SO NOT TO BLEED EVERYWHERE IT ONLI ADDS TO THE DIRTY FEELING I HAVE DUE TO WHAT HE HAS DONE. WEN HE COMES BACK HE SAYS SOMTHING TO WHILE IM LAYING ON THE SOFA IN SHOCK THE WORDS HE SAYS I WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE WORDS I HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT WHEN I WANT SOMTHING I DONT GIVE UP TILL I GET IT THOSE WORDS RING IN MY EARS OVER AND OVER SINCE THAT MOMENT AN HAVE NEVER STOPED. I LAY THERE STILL SILENT SHOCKED WHILE HE GOES INTO THE ROOM MY FRIEND AND SISTER FIGURE IS IN I JUST LAY THERE STARING AT THE SILENT TELLYVISION THOSE WORDS RINGINGOVER AND OVER AND OVER BEFORE I KNOW IT HE COME BACK IN THE ROOM I DIDNT AND STILL DNT KNOW HOW LONG HE WAS IN THERE HE THEN LET ME AND MY FRIENd GO HOME I STILL REMEMBER THE SILENCE OF THE WALK BACK TO MY HOUSE WE GOT IN AND WENT TO MY ROOM THEN THE LIGHT IN MY HEAD WENT ON I ASKED MY FRIEND WHAT HE HAD DONE TO HER SHE TOLD ME THEY HAD HAD SEX I ASKED IF SHE SAID YES OR NO AND SHE TOLS ME SHE HAD SAID NO ALL I COULD THINK OFF WAS WHY WHY DIDI I TAKE HER THERE HAD HAD BEEN RAPING AND ABUSING ME FOR A LONG TIME I KNEW WHAT HE WAS LIKE WHY DID I LEAD HER INTO IT WHY DIDNT I GO INTO THAT ROOM AND HELP HER WHY WHY WHY WHY

HELP ME SOME ONE MUST KNOW HOW TO GET RID OFF THESES THINGS THAT I SEE REMEMBER SMELL HEAR THINK AND FEEL PLEASE SOME ONE MUST KNOW HOW TO GET RID OFF THEM PLEASE PLAESE