I am no longer in contact with my abuser as he has been jailed now not for my abuse though he got not guilty on rape but guilty of concentual sex with an underager how can they say i just spread my legs for him?

i dont know where it goes from here i am no longer being abused or going through courts but i have no idea what happens next? i have a conciler but i cant talk to her or any one for that matter but i still cant even sleep at nite for flash backs and memories.

will this go on for ever will the pain ever stop coz it dont feel like it will any more. i always used to think that in time it would go away but how much time will it take??? after reading everything people say on here its hard to even have a glimmer of hope that it will go away the people on here say they still feel this way 20 years on i cant be like this for another 20 years.

WHAT HAPPENS NOW!?