I know how bad this will sound but i need help not to kill my abuser i am in the united kindomand he was found not guilty of my rape and abuse instead they just gave him a couple year for sex with an under ager THEY THINK I LET HIM PENATRATE ME ARRRG!  anyway i dont think he has had his punishment and i know it will take me a 10 minit phone call to find out exact prison he is in and the exact day he gets out i am also very aware that i can have the fire arm of my choice in less than 24 hours 48 at tops - i realy should not be able to say that at 15 years of age! but anyway all i can think of is being at that gate when he is let out and puttin a cap between his eyes to see the fear in his eyes that he gave me to make him pay for what he done and i know i can do it i know how easy the action would be but im also aware of the consoquenses but i find myself closer and closer each day to arranging the whole thing

I NEED HELP HOW DO I STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!