I have just came to realize some amazing things. After reading many stories and looking at pictures that people have posted on this site, it's occured to me how amazing all the survivors really are. I mean I know I can't speak for everyone on here but speaking for myself, I think it's incredible how well we can put on a face of courage. I mean terrible things have happened to us and we have the ability to put on a strong face and continue with our lives. Sometimes this can be a bad thing I mean we somehow sometime need to face and deal with what has happened but we have the incredible strength to continue to live and be happy even if it's just for a while. I know that probably a lot of people wake up some mornings and don't want to get out of bed, but in the end we put on a strong face and prove to people that we can deal with this and we can continue on living. Sometimes this can only go on for so long, this well mask if you will can only last for a while until in the end we have to talk about what happened or just cry our eyes out. Lots of people have someone they can turn to, but there are many out there who don't have anyone and this site has helped tremendously in that way. Before I could talk to anyone seriously about what happened to me without just brushing it off and telling the person to forget about it, there was always PWP. There is always someone on this site willing to listen and in many cases can even help you in one way or another. The support that you can find on PWP is just amazing, not only are there supporters but there are also other survivors. You can even find a survivor with a story similar to yours and its quite possibly that in one way you can help them or they can help you.

Anyways thanks for reading about my little rant. Just amazes me how much support there is out there for people who need some.

Much love,

Bekah

Another poem that just popped randomly in my head during math. enjoy.

Complicated

Don't try to understand my mind,

It is truly one of a kind.

Sometimes theres happiness and sometimes fear

Mostly anger when those thoughts come near.

You cant describe it, there are no words

that you could think of of have heard.

All i really want is for someone to save me

And help me change back to who I used to be.

I'm not sure what inspired this exactly. I guess it's just my constant feeling of lonliness. It doesn't matter if I'm with people I always feel alone in some way. Maybe you can relate maybe you can't. There are two poems I guess but they both have the same topic : Alone. enjoy.

Alone is the wind that flows through the trees.

Alone is the water that runs through the seas.

Alone is the feeling that runs through my mind.

Alone is the despair that I seem to find.

You left me alone

all by myself

I gave you my heart

but you wanted someone else.

The damage has been done

I can feel it inside

I try to run away

but there's nowhere to hide.

All alone I sit and cry

wishing to God he would just let me die.

If he won't help me out

Ill just have to do it myself.

Random thoughts that kind of got pushed together I guess. enjoy.

Everday,

and everynight,

I wish I may,

I wish I might.

Another pill,

taken by my will,

another hit,

and I will commit.

On and on the days go by,

and these drugs still keep me high,

will they ever make me numb?

It doesnt matter if you think its dumb.

This is the only way,

that I can escape,

this is my true form,

my real shape.

But this is the end,

my time is near,

and ill leave numb,

and with no fear.

Another poem typed thing I just wrote. enjoy <3.

I drag the blade across my skin

I feel the pull and the blood begins to fall

I cant stop myself because Ive been taken over

The pain has been released

but this is only a temporary solution

to whats killing me deep inside

Until Im taken over again

I curl up and cry myself to sleep

not wanting to think about anything

just the feeling of being numb.

This is a poem I guess that I wrote a little while ago. It was just how I feel sometimes. I hope you like it. enjoy <3.

I need you to save me from myself,

save me from this emptiness I feel inside,

when will i feel whole again?

All I feel is the darkness take hold of me again,

its calling out for me,

and I just want to fill this lonliness.

Self destructive ways,

each and every day,

but in the end I wont be okay.