It looks like this time Im deploying...and my biggest fear is leaving behind my family who needs me there.
It was very hard breaking the news to them that I will be leaving. It was exactly February of 2011 that my older brother deployed with this same unit. He gave his life in defense of this country. He died a hero. I was to be the guardian for his son. I've been acting as a father figure for him as of the last several months. I've grown quite attached to him. It was very sad telling him I had to go. His father told him the same thing, at this same time last year...and he never saw him again. He cried so much because he feels like I'm going to die too. He told me he didn't want me to go because I might not come back. Not things an 8 year old boy should have to worry about. I don't know what to tell him...I cried for the first time in a very long time. Every time he looks at me he gets teared up. And now hes not talking to me...
I have a lot to prepare for, even now I'm at work delivering this message from a freaking bunker. I can already see the battle streamers on the long march to this fight. I'm with a good group and they dont call use "devil dogs" for nothin. In about 3 days I'll be in the fight. Wish me a steady trigger finger and clear conscience.
Im excited to go because I've been training about 3 years just for this moment. But I'm worried about my family and leaving them. I will do my best and use all of my training to come home. And to make my brother proud...
I want to thank everyone who has helped me thus far. Its been hard, and you all made things bearable. Gave me advice and the will to move on. Now...I will take all of that. My mind is clear. Im more focused than ever, thanks to you all. I will need that to hit the target.
Special thanks to babygirljen16 ,
Jen, you helped my brother through the hardest times of his life. You helped me through mine. For that, I don't have words to express my gratitude. So, just...thanks.
R.I.P. Sgt Aares R.-"The greatest aerial gunner in the Marine Corps"