It's been a long time since I've been on here and during that time I've been on quite the roller coaster of emotions. At the moment, I really feel like I'm starting to lose it, which is freaking me out. It's a combination of lots of stressful things in my life, but right now it feels everything is overwhelming my normal life. I'm so torn between crying, screaming, and just taking a walk and never coming back. I told myself that I would go to the counseling services here at my college today and that in itself is a HUGE stressor right now-- just the thought of walking in there makes my adrenaline start pumping. Also, I've been telling myself that I would go to this counseling center for almost two months now, so actually going is still very up in the air. I'm not sure what I want from those who are reading this. Motivation? Encouragement? Positive pick-me-ups in general? I don't actually know if any of that would work. I guess I'm just venting and would like to know that someone is listening.