i am beyond pissed ! on july 20 , 2011 , my cousin bryant raped me ! ! this is the same cousing who tried to rape me when i was 4 . ugh i`m so mad at him , nasty bastard , gotdammit ! ! seriously , wtf ? ! what was goin thru his head when he did it ! discusting , and i forgave him for what he did when i was little ! well you know what , he just lost my trust and my love !