I haven't logged in for almost 7 months. It has been SO DIFFICULT! You cannot even begin to imagine, although you all know to well some of the things I have had to live through. You have all begged and urged me to leave him. Well, I did!

I LEFT HIM

We have been separated for going on 3 months now. I am 3000 miles away so he can't hurt me anymore. I am living with my family. The healing process has finally begun. I will never be 100% better. That I understand, but at least I can try to be me again.

I have one goal and I have no idea how I will ever achieve this. I don't have it narrowed down or anything. All I know is that I want to do anything I can to help victims/survivors of spousal rape. It is one of the hardest crimes to have convicted and SO MANY men walk. Men just like my ex-husband. Men that don't care for anyone except themselves. Self centered assholes!!!!

Right now I am dealing with the nightmares.

I am writing a book! I will let you all know when it is finished and if I can get it published! It's a recount of my experiences over the last 5 years - and there are parts where I talk about what was going through my mind, and what I did to get through it all.

Thank you everyone for your support and prayers!