I know I should have told my therapist. Every time she asks me why do I not want to take my meds, I respond, "I don`t know, I just don`t." And it doesn`t help. I`m debating whether or not to tell her the reason. She has already kind of guessed, but I told her I don`t remember. Every night I stare at my meds and I don`t want to take them because it makes me sleepy. And every night it plays in my head the nights that I would be at my uncle`s place. And sometimes he would give me soda and he would mix a white powder in it. And when I asked him what it was, he would say it was medicine to make me stronger and it was good for me, just like my vegetables. So I would drink it. well, I would only drink half before I felt sleepy. And then I would wake up the next morning bathed and changed into my clothes for the day, and a bit sore. It was always kind of scary because I couldn`t remember anything between sitting at the table with a glass of Mountain Dew and waking up in the oversized bed. The fact that I`m supposed to take a medicine that makes me sleepy does not go well with me with that memory. I`ve told my therapist so much already. Why do I feel like this is something that she shouldn`t know, then? I know that telling her will only help her understand better. Should I tell her soon or is this something that could wait a while more before I tell her? /:
