So I know, I posted on Friday that I'd be posted an absolute crap load of stuff on here about stuff....

I also realize, that hasn't exactly happened. I'm sorry to those that I got hopes up for this weekend for much ranting and raving by me (I know some of them can be quite funny) but due to unforseen circumstances that hasn't happened. I've had this killer headache for over 2 weeks now, to put it into perspective take a jack hammer put it beside your ear for 2 weeks then have another one pounding on the base of your skull. That's about what has been happening to me. Most days it's been managable. Barely. But I've been getting by. Yesterday I meant to post atleast 2 different things on here, sadly this headache got insane! It was so bad that it actually made me really dizzy and a little bit queezy. Nothing would help it, not any kinds of headache meds, not even my crazy powerful migrane medication did much. I'd probably taken 2 times the recommended dose of medication for myself in a couple of hours to try and take even a small edge off the pain. None helped, and it took me nearly 2 hours to fall asleep just to take a nap in order to see if that would help the headache. Helped for about 45 minutes after I woke up for dinner. Then it started all over again. Thankfully there was no throwing up but things coasted along with much misery and unhappiness. Again took me nearly 2 hours to fall asleep.

Normally at night when I got to bed I spend 45 minutes or so reading. This reading happens online on my Ipod touch. This is because there are a few sites I go to, to read online. I don't usually use my laptop because it's a BEAST of a laptop (17 inch screen) and everything. It made me extremely queezy and left me really over heated and feeling worse. Feeling better today, YAY, but I'm leaving to go see my cousin in Hamilton. Now this is because she JUST had a baby girl (Sara) last Friday. We wanted to go visit after the family came home from the hospital. So that sort of kills my chances of putting anything on here today. I wil try my best to get some stuff posted tomorrow since I have the day off school (yay highschool exams and such) But I must get off because we are leaving shortly to pick up some fixings for garlic cheese toast (yummy!) And then picking up my wonderful boyfriend and heading out.

So I will try and get back online later today if possible and get a couple things up and if not work like a crazy person on them tomorrow since I seemed to have gotten some people's hopes up when I posted last.

It went surprisingly well. Thank god. There are no marks on my arms (well other than old marks that can't be gotten rid of but that's another story....)

People basically avoided me if i told them to leave me alone. And happily so. My step brother wasn't even there...which is always a good thing for me. I never want to see him again!! As it happens this weekend was the weekend that I had my parenting class baby project. (those who don't know it's a doll that is like a real baby and cries and needs feeding changing rocking etc etc etc.) Didn't get much sleep was stressed and emotionally strung out from here in Canada all the way to China (that's a good distance LOL). There were times I wanted to give up on everything just from the pure level of stress there was on me. I managed to get through it all with only a few tears shed... ok there were a few more than a couple tears. Stress does very unpleasent things to me. I get emotionally insane. I was saying things to my mother I wouldn't normally say because I was so exhausted and emotionally unstable. Imagine sleeping an hour every 4 hours. That's what I did all weekend. If I wanted a nap at 2pm because I'd been up for over 12 hours at that point with only an hour or so of sleep, didn't happen. the second I closed my eyes, the baby would cry because she needed something. What it was I had to play the guessing game as to what she wanted but eventually would figure it out. After that there would be a string of other things that I needed to do for her to eventually get her to calm down and go back to sleep. By that point I was REALLY tired and wanted to sleep but was to high strung to sleep. I'm living off of pure will power and coffee. That makes for a very unstable me....

I think I'm going to go for a nap now....oh wait I have math class now I CAN'T SLEEP!! and then I have to work. Today is going to be really fun....NOT!! again with the wishing me luck. Today will be more interesting than I think this weekend and my Mother's day stress.

V