Well it's been like 2 years I think since I was last really truly on this site. That's insane to me. I guess maybe I've healed a little more than I thought I had. I've graduated high school at this point (only took 5 flipping years!) going to be 3 years with my boyfriend this summer (has it already been 3 years.. holy sh!t). Time has gone by really fast. Only thing is, it's April again. Which means the anniversary of the attack. Been trying to keep upbeat though. Cuddles with the puppies, and my boyfriend, and just in general not dwelling. I actually got my first tattoo back in January, my mom was NOT happy about it but I'm 20 now (....holy crap I'm 20.. I feel old) so it's my body to with with as I please. Plus I got my nostril piercing and my belly button pierced (both piercings I've wanted for a very long time).

I've begun to open up to more people about what happened to me. I guess that's also part of the healing process and I like it. No more hiding behind this wall, but instead I get to be me. I started playing an online game on my new phone (that I bought, in MY name!!) and made some probably life long friends, all around the world. One guy in particular. His name is Ryan, and sadly just after my birthday he went missing. The police are investigating and have been for nearly 3 months now. We really miss him, and some of us are starting to fear the worst at this point. I'm scared that he might be dead, but I'm trying to keep the hope alive that maybe he will be found alive and be brought back home, that way all his friends can kick his butt for scaring us half to death, and making us worry.

I guess that's all I gotta say other than, HOW ARE YOU GUYS DOING!? Anyone from back when I was around more still on this site??