Its 3:30 AM right now.....and....I find myself wide awake after a nightmare.

But thats not what bothers me. A friend of mine from High school was found dead on tuesday. He didnt even get to have his 20th birthday that was suppose to be on the 28th of this month.

It really got me thinking. About a lot of things. A very good friend of mine that I lost earlier this year....all the vererans that have died in wars past. Of all different ages....many...never even got the chance to live. Their friends and family lost them....and nothing can ever bring them back

It just....hurts to know...that so many lifes are lost. Most of which dont even get remembered, if not for a day like today. But what about my friend? After 5 years....10 years.....who will remember him apart from his family and really close friends? I mean....I see people posting on his facebook wall saying how they cant believe hes gone...but the truth is...in a few years he will just be another person gone.

It hurts to think about when I think about the ones I love, that have been lost. Because the idea that someone could EVER forget them just...kills me.

I dont understand it. Why DO the good die young? Whats the point? Taking a Father from his children and wife before he even reaches 25 years old. What did he do to deserve that? Why do they have to forever miss him?

Its not fair.

A 19 year old man now will never even get to HAVE children! Will never be able to smile at a wife he could have had or grow old and see their grandbabies. No. Instead his lifes ended.

Death happens. I know that. Its how things are....and im honestly not afraid of that. But that doesnt mean its fair to have to die before your life has even begun.

My grandmother and my great grandmother past away in the last two years. It was peaceful. They were old and had spent their lives here on earth, so losing them was only natural. It hurt...but not like this. This just isnt right :'(

To the many veterans out there. Both who have been taken by death or still alive today. Be proud of who you are.

To John. RIP my friend. You will be missed

To Aares....RIP. You are very much missed. I hope Heaven is beautiful. Thank you for letting me know you

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