Hello to all of the new people here who I have never seen b4. I took a very long break from this site as I didn't want it to trigger me back to anything. I've been without therapy and other care for about 3 monthes now and life is so unpredictable. I am really moody. For example last night I was happy as could be and then a couple hours later had a complete meltdown that lasted about an hour even though I did take medication.....wft? Today I just feel "blah." I feel like maybe I really can't do this anymore. I can't keep going from being so happy to feeling so unworthy of everything---it's like dagging daggers to my heart and repeatedly stabbing me. I have friends that have isssues in their life that come up and it makes me mad that i can't be there for them because it sets me off---i just learned this last night. I don't know. I have come up with so many possible reasons and I am just confused and I don't understand this. Its been 2 years and 16 days. I feel like this time I might as well just stay down for the count. Why bother ever being happy again if this continues to happen ( me falling flat on my face all of a sudden) I know i should try to be happy but just the thought of being happy again make me cry. I dont know if its that i dont want to of if it that at this very moment I just can't. If any of you have ever felt this way please help me! I have nobody to go to...
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