sometimes it can feel like your the past is the past,

but then just in that moment,

it all comes back, 

all the hurt,

all the pain,

it hits you when you least expect it,

and then you have to re deal with it all,

if you let yourself get down, 

you risk the chance of going back to that vicious circle,

it is very scary,

you do not wan to go back there, 

but it looks like thats where i am going,

back to that vicious circle,

hurting myself, 

and i do not know what to do anymore,