i've felt depressed for a while now,
having sleepless nights again,
i dont want this to go on any longer,
i just want this to end....
somedays i feel i was stupid,
for trying to take my own life,
but other days i would welcome the idea,
and think about getting a knife...
i know i have thouht about suicide,
i even attemped it once,
but sometimes i feel lifes not worth living,
and that i'd be much happier up in the heavens...
i feel i may become an insomniac,
if i keep on not sleeping,
i find that i spend most of my time awake,
thinking sad thoughts and weeping...
however much rubbish this seems to you,
it makes perfect sense to me.
and although life doesnt always run smooth,
we are the makers of our own destiny x x x
i wrote this back in August when i was feeling very very depressed... but im getting better now :)