I hate the past of my angry child hood I had.I came up in a very abusive home it was a lot of fiscal so I thought thats the way I was to feel better was I wrong.I use to pic fights not that the person deserved are they even did anything to me.I would pick fights and say hurtful things till they wanted to fight are till I just made the first move.I would beat them till I was feeling better,I guess it could be like cutting.3 of the people that I did this to I was later in life I was able to say I was sorry it didn't make it rights its just something that was the thing to do.God gave me a very changed heart.I love you all please remember that we always need to be focused on what we are saying are doing.What I'm trying to say here is its not the person fault some times that we are sayings to that isn't the cause of how we are feeling.