Have you had that accusation towards you after you have told? Or just been left with that feeling?

I have learned that people we have "lied" to, grown up with and kept a secret away from, is hard to brake that ice to come and say. And you always be left with the question, "why din't you say anything"? ... Yeah, when I try explain, "liar" kept smashing back in my face, but I know I wasn't! I told my mother so many times, HER responisbility not mine! I told my ex about this and he still ignored everything that had happend to me. But why say "I love you" then? It is like as empty as when my mother said the same thing. Until the day she ended up sitting there laughing at rape, I had given her one tiny bit of a chanse to really prove it, but at that point the last bit broke to pieces, no way back, the proof of "I love you" mean instead the oposite, "I hate you"... This your mother who gives you life to live, but instead thinks it is okay to torture their own child! ???

I even wrote it online in 2000, but people didn't believe in me... If so why did they allow him to abuse me again, make me pregnant, let him make me more harm after I am grown up... I told, but the wrong people..

I wish someone could be able to stand up and help the ones that dares to tell online in secrets somehow STOP it and save them from more torture! You can not be so cruel and stand beside and know someone is going through torture not doing anything to help... Thank you!