Why do therapists have to be so irritating!
I had a therapy session today and was discussing how i find it really difficult to be passionate about things or motivate myself to do the things I really want to do. What I really wanted to do was explore this. I know it is because i feel too exposed and vulnerable to let people see who i really am but my therapists response was "well you've told me, that's a first step"!! I don't pay for bloody comments like that! It infuriates me that when I really need someone (my therapist) to challenge me and helpme explore issues she acts like a friend trying to be helpful but not getting it!
This isn't the first time she has let me down like this, she spent one session trying to give me advise and make suggestions about how to avoid my mother at a family gathering instead of exploring with me the feelings that made me want to avoid her. The worst was when I was telling her about something I found to be really abusive and she kept asking me if I was sure ithad happened!
Now I know therapists aen't perfect but I am seriously considering whether or not this is the therapist for me. I've been seeing her just short of a year now and so the thought of starting again with someone else is quite unsettling but I'm not sure she's the one to help me get to where I need to be. Sometimes she irritates me and I know deep down it's because what she is saying is right and I don't want to hear it but at times like today it just feels unhelpful and leaves me feeling an opportunity has been wasted.
should I look into therapists elsewhere? I have an offer of a free consultation with someone to hear what I need and make a reccommendation of a local therapist so I am tempted to take up the offer. I think I also need to write down what, at this point in time, I consider the issues I still need to work on to be. Maybe that would be a good start and then I can discuss them with my current therapist as well as discussing my dissatisfaction when she closes down discussions by making what she considers to be helpful and supportive statements.
Hmmm I see a plan forming