I was feeling really down today and not entirely knowing why so I decided to write to my inner child. I had written to my 5 year old last week and it was really good, she spoke to me loads and I discovered things about my abuse that she has been hiding for over 30 years.
This time I could tell it was my teenager in unrest so I wrote to her instead. She is so confused and feeling abandoned and rejected so it took a couple of letters before she opened up to me but amazingly she really inspired me and made me feel much more purposefull and motivated to live my life rather than watch it pass me by as I am inclined to do.
I have only recently begun communicating with my inner child(ren) and it is really amazingly empowering to finally listen to what has been locked away inside. It is giving me more understanding of myself and the way I behave and also helping to lessen the impact of the inner self on my outward behaviour.
I was feeling really needy but am aware, from past experience and therapy, that I cannot push these needs onto those around me and in particular my partner. This leaves me feeling lost and alone and tearful. Talking with my inner chid today enabled me to meet some of that need for myself so I lessened the negative feelings I was experiencing and felt listened to and understood instead.
My teenager is actually quite cool. She has a real zest for life if I just take the time to listen to her more often I am sure she will misbehave less and inspire and motivate me more. She just needs parenting and boundaries and to know she is safe and loved. It's down to me to provide that for her.