Hi there everyone...   I thought I would let you know that the CAAP assessment to determine maltreatment and parenting capacity for our abuser and me is rescheduled. So no feedback until September 15 th, at 3:00 pm.  There must be a reason but the medical team isn't saying what it is. I was supposed to get my feedback on August 25th and finally maybe some closure?  Who knows but the Lord...

I'm not sure if I posted this but my son when he was left alone with his abuser while the girlfriend went to her apartment (the supervisor).  On Sunday morning my son and I were having breakfast and he finally told me a secret his daddy told him to keep from the "hosbibal when he goes with mom"....the secret....yep!  Don't tell them daddy touched your penis!  .....argh! I felt like throwing up.  I called my lawyer and yes I couldn't get hold of him on a Sunday and the court order is police enforced to drop my son off soooooo....I dropped him off and forfeited my feelings for a while.  I can't say to you all what I was thinking during the drop off.  

I did nothing ....I did nothing....and it broke my heart. 

Anyway I did finally contact Children's Aid Society and notify them of what happened but they haven't really responded yet.  I gave a copy of my notes to the CAAP assessors about what my son said about daddy.  Ironically I noticed while writing out the whole thing for CAAP that on July 24 the CAAP told me that me and the kids would be re-interviewed and I am assuming that they likely told the abuser (his daddy) too on this date or shortly after.  He must have panicked and convinced his girlfriend to leave him alone for daddy and son time. Of course she is in denial and leaves so dad could have time alone with my son. This was on August 2nd just shortly after we were all notified of another interview which none of us were expecting.  Than my son discloses on August 16 that while they were playing alone daddy told him not to tell that he touched his penis at the hospital with mom....hmmmmm

I have no way of knowing what is going on unless this is truly coming out of my son's mouth because what happens on access is not communicated to me.  I was never told that the assessors told my ex the abuser we were all being interviewed again so how would I know to even make up a story like this.  They have to be wondering by now if what I'm saying is true!  You would have to !  Wouldn't you?  I'm so tired of these extensions and so tired of seeing our abuser and so tired of being tired. 

Just a couple of days ago I was inspired by God to be "debt free" from my abuser...so again I acknowledge that he has no power over me or my awesome children!  Take Care  .... Blessings!

Mandee