I wanted to share a very deep part of my life with my friends here on PWP.  I don't normally do this but it is something I can't bury inside.  My fiance and I got pregnant again and we were thrilled!  February 21st, 2011 we took a test and were so deeply  moved with the thought that God would bless us with another angel.  I let my guard down because our last pregnancy was fantastic and no problems.  The only pregnancies I'd lost were with my abuser after his sexual & physical assault that torment me to this day.  I guess his abuse left scarring because just five days later we lost our precious baby.  We are devestated and I'm finding it impossible to keep my anger inside.  I am so upset about the loss and the reminder that my womb has been forever damaged because of my abuser. He will always have that ...he gave me that curse.  We lost another baby because of his abuse.  I HATE WHAT HE DID TO ME....my heart is just breaking.  I am praying that God will bless us with another healthy pregnancy to remind me how God is in Charge....I love you all and miss chatting.

Be back soon

Love Mandee