I don't admit this often but I am really scared tonight. My partner and I lost a baby on February 25, 2011 and we were devestated but God helped us get through it.  We are very blessed because we are pregnant again!  The pregnancy has gone well so far ...well I've been feeling really sick but so far so good...well I hope..

We are 10 weeks two days right now and just this week we had our prenatal screenings in the form of an ultrasound and bloodwork. It was weird when I got the ultrasound picture I was sure we would be able to see arms and legs...but it is just the head and body...a sort of glob on the ultrasound. I tried to put that out of my mind because we were one week behind what we thought we were so I just assumed the baby hadn't developed much yet or that it's arms and legs were tucked in somewhere.  Now this morning the phone rings and it's my doctor...well my doctor NEVER calls, even if there is a minor issue...he still doesn't call me for an appointment.  In fact they booked me in for tomorrow and said it has something to do with my bloodwork!  OH MY I am very very frightened....I am praying that nothing serious is wrong....

We already have special needs son and I know the heartache, blood, sweat and hospital visits that is needed for their care.  PLEASE I pray God spares us another child who is going to go through so much hurt and so much work.....our son is so special and he is my hero. I have never seen a child go through so much and survive with such a good soul.  He is awesome please don't get me wrong...I just don't know if I could take it again....

I am soooo worried, I am maybeing this and maybeing that and it is driving me nuts!  I normally hold myself together better but I think the loss in February is compounding my concerns.  It is likely nothing but I'M SCARED...

Blessings!

Mandee