I updated everyone on how my abuser was considered a "moderate risk" of sexually re-offending.  I shared about how the Child Protective Services in my area would no longer do the supervised access visits which set me free of having to send my son on access with our abuser (my son's too).  Since my son has stopped seeing his father he has improved leaps and bounds with his attitude.  He is more co-operative and friendly. He has less mood swings and shows so much more improvement socially. HE HAS FRIENDS!!  He goes out to play like all the rest of the children on the street. It's great! 

Than.....My abuser calls!!

Ok so I get a call today from our local charity which supervises access between children and their parents. They told me that my ex called and would like to have an assessment as to whether they will supervise the access at their centre.  They called me to ask that I submit any written material to support my concerns about further access with the agency.  They will be making a decision over the next couple of weeks as to whether they would consider supervising access. I can't believe the future of my son's life is in the hands of an access centre again!! Why do people who may not even have a diploma in child protection have the right to decide whether my ex is a risk or not. If they decide to supervise access than I am up shits creek without a paddle. The courts will order my son back on access....back and fricken forth ...over and over again....he has already gone four months without seeing him and now they may send him back on access with his abuser...UNREAL!!

However if they decide they will NOT supervise access and I manage to convince them that he is a serious risk to other children and their parents at the centre than they will write a letter and say that access will not be at their facility ...since they have the only facility to supervise such cases than that would be the end of a very long and dragged out court battle. ....ladies and gents ....the bullshit begins!!

 I hope you will all pray and agree with me that my ex will no longer be allowed access to my son and that we can move on and continue to heal from his abuses...It may be the beginning of another five year battle or the end of a 5 year court / Child Protective services battle...this is entirely in the hands of strangers once again!!  Actually no it's not...it's in God's hands!! lol I keep forgetting I can turn to a higher power.

Blessings Everyone!  Mandee