Most of you will remember a couple months ago when Jenn (DeepBlueEyes17) recanted her story and claimed to have lied about ever being abused.  Many months before then, I had befriended her and we exchanged phone numbers. We would text each other and call and talk. There were many times that She would need someone to talk to and I would call her and talk with her. I have many, many good memories of her, and was devastated when another friend texted me to tell me that Jenn confessed to making everything up (someone had called the police and when they showed up, her dad was confused and Jenn was scared and confessed). I thought back to the times over the phone after “incidents” (won’t go into detail) and remembered she sounded. She would sound panicky and a few times actually broke down while on the phone with me.
 So with that in mind with the fact that she confessed, I was under the assumption that she was really sick, to believe her own lies to the point where she actually cried about them over the phone.
 I have been spending the past several days reading all of Mandee’s Entries. There are so many, and I read so slow, that it’s taken me almost a month to finish them (I finally finished reading them tonight). There was one Entry in particular I wanted to talk about. It’s her Entry titled “URGENT!” (Those of you familiar with Madee’s Entries probably saw that coming, seeing the topic of the first two paragraphs.)
 In it, Mandee talks about how she believes that Jenn lied about lying to protect her father. After reading it I rolled my eyes (“Of course Mandee would have those views!”).
 But then I thought about it...
 When she was talking to me over the phone, she had REAL emotion in her voice. I don’t think even the highest paid actor could have pulled that off. I now agree with Mandee and think that Jenn is a Survivor.
 I also want to apologize...

 Not very many people know this (because I have decided not to tell very many people), but I am the one who called the police that night. They took down my info and told me (and I quote), “If anything happen to my men out there, I’m coming after you.” That had me scared, because I didn’t know what Jenn’s father was capable of. They also told me not to inform anyone that they were on their way (I had told them I was talking to Brit.  They didn’t want me telling her then have her telling Jenn and have her give hints to her dad).
 After I was told by Brit that Jenn had confessed and that she had posted that Entry apologizing to everyone, the police called me back  and criticized me. I apologized to them and told them that I had no idea at all that she was lying. Then they made a bunch of threats and hung up.
 All the drama that unfolded over the next month or so around Jenn is completely my fault. I shouldn’t have called the cops. It was me thinking I was helping and, as always, end up making things worse for everyone. I have that tendency and really hate the fact that I can’t help anyone no matter how hard I try and want. I’m sorry to anyone I’ve ever hurt or failed to protect.

 I’m so sorry, Jenn.