3 hours i was gone.
i fought with my grandpa for him to let me come see you. in fear that you would kill me if i did not. you waited for me in the car outside. the fear i felt when i got in the car and buckled my seat belt. you began to drive. i have no idea where we were buti knew it was a hotel. you said we were gonna talk. the desk clerk starred at me. im sure he saw the pain in myeyes. you opened the door and we walked in. the only talk i remembered was cursing and screaming. now thinking back it was my own screams i heard. again another day bieng raped. why i dont know. i cant understand why noone cared to intervine. i layed there bare and in such filth. blood all over the bed from the pain and abuse i had just suffered.it can be seen as soaked. you showered. it was never fair you used me as your cheap whore. you came to me and handed me a towel. i refused to bath in a dirty hotel bath. so for that you felt i deserved what you did next. you grabbed my hair and dragged meto the bath and threw me in. i hit my head which made me dizzy. you picked me up by my throat and choked me till it turned black. hard smack is what i woke up to and yelling to get dressed. i was clean but still aching and i put my clothes on. the drive home felt fast, i was in a daze before i got out the car you handed me a box with a boe. i went inside and all my fam asked is what i did and where i went. i made up some story and went to my room
why didnt i say something why didnt i tell? i guess my sister meant more to me than i thought, cause in the back of my mind his words of hurting her if i told would linger like a plague. i opened the present, the letters that spelled out nani was written on an xoxo chain gorgeous but to me worthless. i needed to rest the next day was the christmas eve event but couldnt sleep much only nightmares.....
