I remember back when I held my breathe when I smelt smoke;

now I'm addicted to cigarettes.

Back when getting drunk was stupid;

now I drink every weekend.

Back when boys said they loved you and meant it;

now they said it to get laid.

Back when someone said "I'm growing plants." I thought flowers;

now they grow drugs.

Back when "getting lucky" meant having good luck;

now it's having good sex.

Back when I cried because that one boy didn't like like me back;

now I cry about rape and abuse.

Back when people called me fat and I said: "At least I can eat cookies.";

now I barely eat anything.

Back when old, marride men talked to you 'cause they were neighbours;

now they secretly offer you money for sex.

Back when strangers smiled at you to be friendly;

now everyone wants something.

Back when I brought my teachers the flowers I'd find on the playground;

now my middle finger's in the air when they turn their back.

I remember those days.

Back when everything was simpler, happier.

Back when I was happyier.

Back when I actually liked who I was.