I remember back when I held my breathe when I smelt smoke;
now I'm addicted to cigarettes.
Back when getting drunk was stupid;
now I drink every weekend.
Back when boys said they loved you and meant it;
now they said it to get laid.
Back when someone said "I'm growing plants." I thought flowers;
now they grow drugs.
Back when "getting lucky" meant having good luck;
now it's having good sex.
Back when I cried because that one boy didn't like like me back;
now I cry about rape and abuse.
Back when people called me fat and I said: "At least I can eat cookies.";
now I barely eat anything.
Back when old, marride men talked to you 'cause they were neighbours;
now they secretly offer you money for sex.
Back when strangers smiled at you to be friendly;
now everyone wants something.
Back when I brought my teachers the flowers I'd find on the playground;
now my middle finger's in the air when they turn their back.
I remember those days.
Back when everything was simpler, happier.
Back when I was happyier.
Back when I actually liked who I was.