I have a history of sex abuse. I suffered sex abuse when I was seven. After that was exposed, I buried my feelings but I couldn't do the same for the memories. I had a slew of "not rape" stories. Then when I was 19, I was raped by my now ex-boyfriend. The only reason why I haven't cracked up is.....actually I don't really know why. I just don't want to be so afraid of my own darkness that I'll let it eclispe me. I just can't. That's why I'm here. :)