Shit, I'm full of anger right now,

In stead of me sleeping like I should be,

I'm up crying and just overwhelmed,

I don't even know why I'm writing this,

I think I have lost myself alittle,

Frustrated about the holidays,

Tis the season to be jolly,

Fuck I must be fake and pretending all the time,

Deep, deep down I feel like shit,

Thank god everyone is asleep,

But yet it would'nt matter cause I would pretend anyway,

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Yet I will wake tomorrow happy and shit,

Most likely not even remember what I wrote,

Or that I was even on here,

Until I look back on this,

Shake my head and think wow I'm fucked up.

Bump, trembles her brain,

"I must lurk inside",

"Never to be visible",

"For if I'm seen I will be known",

Then who will shield her?

She needs protection at all times,

"I can't allow the unworthy to assault her",

"I will come out if I have to",

"I won't be a graceful sight,"

"I will show you my anger",

"That's why I stay in most of the time."