Just like it says I found my father. I looked up his name on google along time agoe and found a message on a ansitery site of a lady looking for her grandparents. I contacted her because she included my fathers name in her search. We stayed in contact via email for sometime and I decided it was time to meet her. Well, it was too late then because she had passed away. I was devistated to not have meet her in person. Well to make a long story short, I looked it up again being yesterday and my father had responed to my message saying he has been looking for me and my sister forever and left me his whole address and phone number. Well. fuck I lost it, started crying and screaming and got sick. Is there a reason why I looked it up again and is there a reason why he responed? It's been 3 years since he left that message for me. I think this is my actual closure. Now, I sit and decide how to deal with this. I will write to him with no forward address. I will start from the first memory of abuse and continue to now. I will let it all out. I will let him no what he has done to me and to the rest of my family. I will share my story my book. My book I have been writing for years, he will be the first to read it. Then I will publish it to the world.