I can't make sense of my head

So many thoughts run through my mind

Thoughts of self-harm, thoughts to die

All of the memories from my past

I feel so stupid

I feel so pathetic

I am 19 years old

And they still control me now

I can still see them

I can still smell them

I can even still feel them

It's too real in my mind

How could they do that to a child?

How could you do that to your cousin?

How could you do that to your friend

How could you harm your own daughter?

I still beat myself up from all they done

I still feel worthless, I can't forget what they done

I still feel scared, when they play in my mind

I still feel angry, when someone  mentions there name

It is so fucked up

I'm one big mess

I feel so much pain

Yet their lives go on so well

Fuck you Mum & Dad

Fuck you Jaron

Fuck you Luke & Todd

Fuck  you Nikita & Shane

Fuck you Brent

Fuck the rest of you

Fuck all of you for what you done

And don't worry your time will come