The days are getting harder now
I don’t want to be around
I just wish this pain would end
Or go away for a while
I try so hard to keep my mind blank
So I won’t feel a thing
But my mind is filled with memories
And haunting me they are
I can’t forget those awful days
I can’t forget the pain
The memories play in my head
I think I’m living it again
Why won’t this pain just go away?
Why won’t my smile return?
If it did, would it matter?
Would the pain return?
So many bad thoughts visit me
Every single day
Telling me to give up now
Why stay another day?
It’s not like the world’s safer now
It’s getting worse all the time
And I’m always feeling scared
But no one really ever cares
I feel so guilty
That they walk free
That I wasn’t strong
That I never put them where they belong
I know it will be my fault
When their next victim comes along
But it’s not like I can change it now
And save another’s life
I cut my wrist sometimes
To represent a small part of the pain I feel
But I couldn’t cut deep enough
To show the pain inside
It distracts me from my mind
Even though it’s just for a while
But I guess it’s just like happiness
That only last a short time