I often wonder why you never loved me the way you should have
I don’t understand how you let Daddy beat me to the ground
Why did you let him hurt me?
Why didn’t you save me from him?
I often ask myself, why you never did anything when you found my blood stained underwear
Was I not important enough?
Was I unworthy of your love?
Why wasn’t I special enough?
Was I just never good enough?
How come you never asked me about my bruises?
How come you blamed me for Daddy’s actions?
There’s so many things I don’t understand like why you never told me you loved me
Why weren’t you there when I needed you most?
Why did you never care enough to be there when I cried?
I wish you could have been there so I could have told you when I was scared
I wish you were there to hug me & tell me things would be okay
Why didn’t you call those times I didn’t come home?
Weren’t you the slightest bit worried?
How could you not even care?
Why didn’t you get me help, when you saw the cuts on my body?
Did it not even bother you, that I was hurting myself?
Why did you never check on me when Daddy beat me & left me alone?
Weren’t you concerned that I wasn’t okay?
You wonder why I don’t want you in my life
Did you just forget about all the pain you caused?
How can you say you love me?
When you treated me so bad?
Actions speak louder than words
So I’m sick of all your lies
Don’t worry about me
My life is better without you in it
I don’t have a Mum & I don’t have a Dad
If I did, I wouldn’t be writing these words
You lost that privilege a long time ago
So you can stop with all of your lies
& leave me alone
Go fool someone else
Cause I’m no longer part of your games
& when I smile, remember its not because of you
& when I cry, remember your part of this pain
So when your crying because you no longer see your baby daughter
Remember always, you’re the only one to blame