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Posted 10 hour(s) ago by jannehelen
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Sitting there in that livingroom where he had been doing that. He could laugh and wither and talk like nothing had happend... I was a scared ghost of myself... Feeling like a living dead. I was lying there naked under that blanket and he KNEW! She knew what he had been doing too, but did she stop it? Anyone? Noone... Thank you... She commented on me "are you lying there naked"? I had to go to the toilet once and there where guests too sitting there amongst them while I was lying there naked....
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Posted 10 hour(s) ago by Narask
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So.I found this website via friend who is a survivor. She never told any of her friends till last night. So props to her. A Little about me... Im a 19 year old big male trying to find my way in life. I have a big heart and will give help to those who needs/want it. I sturrugled with Depression for a couple year stemmming from the death of my closest friend who was also my brother. he died in a tragic car accident. I have pulled out of the depression but I was self harming and suicidal ...
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Posted 17 hour(s) ago by bianca
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Posted 17 hour(s) ago by bianca
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Posted 24 hour(s) ago by SarahElizabeth
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Posted 2 day(s) ago by scars12
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I need a ways out. I don't believe it will get better. I don't know if I can stay to find out. The pills are calling and it only seems to get louder. I take a deep breath yet never enough air. I walk through the fog try to find answers and yet I end with more questions. I am falling and I don't care to stop.
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Posted 3 day(s) ago by babygirljen16
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Hello again my friends Seems that like I said in my last message....thing typically do not get good..they get worse...and whats been going on lately is just proof of that. So my boyfriend decided he was going to tell my best friend that we are dating. I wasnt ready to tell her, because I knew she wouldnt approve, turns out, I was 100% correct. She HATES the idea of it, and has been trying to reason with me about how much of a bad idea this is, and that I need to end it now before I get hu...
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Posted 3 day(s) ago by jannehelen
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What is your thoughts about this? I have so many diferent meanings about this been told me. A normal life isn't having to have a family or be in a realationship with someone. Neither having a job, a house, car and a pet. A normal life is to be be able to be 100% whole as person and be respected as human. Be allowed to be the one you are and not told to be anyone else or tried changed into something or someone you are not. That people around you behave naturally and respect you as ...
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Posted 3 day(s) ago by Ria
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My birthdays coming up in about three weeks and I feel really sad about it. Lots of rejection surrounding memories of that day. Friends who forgot, family that does not care. Reminders of the years that have gone by. For me my birthday is the aniversary of my abuse. I have no real memory of the day it started or anything like that. It lasted for so long, I just blocked out that enitre year of my life. Memories still pop up but I forgot that year of my life. That year almost 13 years ago...
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Posted 3 day(s) ago by AngelDorah
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ok i am looking at wedding stuff. but the one thing that hurt a lot is not have my mom to help me. this hurt a lot it make me cry sometime like now.i now i have good friend around to help me whit this.i need to get this out
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Posted 3 day(s) ago by jannehelen
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Have you had that accusation towards you after you have told? Or just been left with that feeling? I have learned that people we have "lied" to, grown up with and kept a secret away from, is hard to brake that ice to come and say. And you always be left with the question, "why din't you say anything"? ... Yeah, when I try explain, "liar" kept smashing back in my face, but I know I wasn't! I told my mother so many times, HER responisbility not mine! I told my ex about this a...
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Posted 5 day(s) ago by AngelDorah
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i am so sorry that i have not been on here. i have been work and doing a lot artwork for art show a lot.and been write my new penpals love this.yes you can find me on penpals heaven.looking for someone to swap stuff.i am on swap,shop swappers all on facebook.i did 13 new artwork
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Posted 6 day(s) ago by onemoreday
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I seem to be an intelligent person, at least I would like to think so. My IQ is like 138. My GPA is a 3.8. I've said that to say this. I CANNOT FORM A FREAKING SENTENCE ANYMORE. I caught myself having issues spelling the word what today. It has 4 freaking letters!!! I could read before going to head start and I cannot spell a simple word like what? WTF? I cannot gather thoughts anymore. Sometimes I think it would just be easier to stop trying.&n...
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Posted 6 day(s) ago by judithkristell789
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i cant take it anymore i give up!! its too hard for me its killing me from the inside im living a slow and painful death its just too much for me. i thought pwp would help me becuause other people have gone through the same thing as me but i was wrong.. reading the stories from you guys made me think more and more of my pain. im sorry but i cant take it anymore iits just too much for me. its just too much for a 16 year old girl..its just too much pain just too much..bye!!
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Posted 7 day(s) ago by lsabel
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l have been writing my thoughts for 18 years onmy son Phillip because he is what made believe that they is hope at the end of the tunnel,and yet the world remain the same way l am not a perfect mother but Phillip been 21 year old and my first born l am so confuse about him that at time l wish l could talk to someone about phillip and that when l say l am leaving to have an operation the first words are l really truely hope you die l have been so hurt but did't let him see me cry, ...
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Posted 7 day(s) ago by UnforgivingLove
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Violence in my world? There`s no such thing. Hatred in my world? There`s no such thing. Only peace and kindness. But that`s only a dream. There`s no such thing. You thought you could hide. You thought that by saying nothing I would never figure it out. I`m not that ignorant. I had my suspicions, I was just too dumb to believe it. When I asked, You just pushed it away. Flat out denied it. You think that I wouldn`t find out? I`m not that little girl Hi...
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Posted 7 day(s) ago by strongmelanie
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Walking through a crowd, I look across the way, A child looks me in my eyes, We lock eyes, I read her like I understand, I smile, she lowers her head in shame, I feel her hurt, her pain. I look at who is holding her hand, An anger man with dreadful eyes, We lock eyes, I read him but, I don't understand, I give him a sad look, He senses my thoughts, He lowers his head to the ground.
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Posted 7 day(s) ago by strongmelanie
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So innocent so pure. This age I remember the most. She plays and laughs. She's free spirit and joy. I sat in silence and cried. I never played, I hid. I look at her and I heal. She is me at the age of three. So innocent so pure.
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Posted 7 day(s) ago by strongmelanie
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Why are my friends aloud to play? As I close my eyes and pray. Dear lord why are they so happy? As I sit here feeling crappie. Do they have hurt and pain? Do they hold it all in shame? Am I the only one? I don't think so.
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Posted 8 day(s) ago by UnforgivingLove
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"She`s smiling on the outside But she's hurting on the inside It's getting hard just living anymore And the shadows she has clung to The painful things that she has been through Have left her feeling worthless, Lord. But you change worthless into precious Gulty to forgiven Hungry into satisfied Empty into full And all the lies are shattered And we believe we matter When you cha...
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Posted 12 day(s) ago by KFIRUSH
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Hi You All Well i decided to write and aproch all because... What!?!? ...Is going on ? Some people are decided that PWP will be there place to publish shoes and they are coping A full text and past is here at PWP.... So i say Please explain them that they are not in the Right Place... More and More are comming... Stop them.............
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by TrbldHazelEyes
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I haven't logged in for almost 7 months. It has been SO DIFFICULT! You cannot even begin to imagine, although you all know to well some of the things I have had to live through. You have all begged and urged me to leave him. Well, I did! I LEFT HIM We have been separated for going on 3 months now. I am 3000 miles away so he can't hurt me anymore. I am living with my family. The healing process has finally begun. I will never be 100% better. That I unde...
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by candy22778
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This is one of the hardest things i have ever done. Telling my story or at least as much of it as i can recall. It all began so long ago when i was only 2 years old. You see when i was living with my aunt and uncle and her four boys along with my mother in a large house in Tx. Her youngest sons had begun molesting me when i was two. I don't remember much other than it always happened when one of the adults sent one of the boys in to read me a bed time story. I hated bed time storys....
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by noonecares
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lulu playing
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by marfafilms
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Marf Dandelily McTowel July 8 at 5:33pm [I am well aware that there is a movie by the same title as this. However, my thoughts on this is more agone than the movie. It was a relief to find that the movie was not like my idea, so I do not feel like it has been stolen from me. I hope you three like it. I'm not ready for massive viewing of it just yet...] Sent via Facebook Mobile
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by KateSwift
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At last my book was published the Wednesday before last!!! :0) It has all my poetry, a bio and the foreword is by my therapist. It also has my art therapy work in it too. I always wanted to get my poems published one day and now is the day :0) If anyone can help me to share it I would be most appreciative. It can be downloaded from the publishers website Here is the book description and the link... ‘This Tangled Web’ is one woman’s journey from victim to survivor....
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by WONDERER4U
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Can anyone tell me about other sites for survivors I feel more comfortable listening then talking at this time Hope you can tell me about other sites out there Thanks
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by Help
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well yesterday night i was just sitting and was asked, if the person i liked died, how would i kill myself? then the person started suggesting ways... i was shocked for one, but said jump off a cliff, then the person said then what if he ended up being alive, i just said well then ill be dead :/ and the person just laughed and well called me stupid...still trying to figure out what the heck they meant or if i should be hurt by it, because the person was someone close who i dont think should ...
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Posted 2 week(s) ago by discoveringthenewme
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I went off of my medication that I've been on for over two and a half years two months back. The first month i spent fighting going through withdrawls which I thought would surely be the worst part of this process. About a month into it i had 3 nightmares in a week---only one that i actually remember, the others my boyfriend told me about as i was screaming and lashing out in my sleep. Within the past two weeks I started feeling really down but I figured I just needed to get out an...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by demii
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i have made it this far, a year and a day.. yesterday it was a year, at 11:42 i fell apart, flashbacks, not eating. the whole day, just replayed in my head. someone asked "how are you?" and my voice got all muffled, because i was trying to hold back the tears, i didnt want to cry, and im proud that i didnt. i wanted to show that i am stronger now. but today.. my aunt made me tell my story to her, while my brother and momma were in the room. so i did. and as i look over at my broth...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by babygrl36
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Ok here it goes i am going to tell you after last week getting the scare of my life some memeries have come out i was dating ths man in the beginning he was amazing good to me and my daughter he has never hurt my daughter but me on the other hand it was hell he made me do things that no man would let his girl do but he on the other had was sick he raped me he got his friends to rape me as he watched i was beating and after my heart attack last week triggered some of these bad memories i have...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by noonecares
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this is fifi
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by noonecares
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this is shadow
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by noonecares
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this is lulu
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by noonecares
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this is fluffy, sheba sister
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by noonecares
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this is my cat sheba
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by strongmelanie
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I'm embarrassed right now so much. I split at work today and cried unbelievably. There was a paper at my staff table, about a little girl that got murdered in our town by her step father. I didn't even know about it and I would not expect to read about it at my work as I drink my coffee. First I got pissed right off and sad who in fuck would leave something like this in here. Then I started to cry uncontrollably. Everyone just looked at me, nobody knows anything about me....
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by Help
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i got a new cd today yay it came with a little doll! i was waiting for it all week, im so happy it came! my mother doesnt really like it but i love it so much aw im gona keep it with me everywhere now hehe!
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by leahslife
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i have just been given a fantastic oppotunity of a new job, the job is of a home care support worker! for the past few years i have always worked in homes for the elearly or minimum wage which bearly gets me and my family by. but the new job is excelent pay with brilliant training oppotunitys and gives me everything i want to further my career, now for the catch!! my first bunch of clients live in the same villiage as my abuser!! i dont know what to do, do i take the job and basi...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by NeroTouNnsiou
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I got no point to this message I'm just going to write and see what comes. I feel down this week, I am tired and I'm sure this is affecting my mood. I had a hard therapy session but also a difficult group therapy session. I thought I might try a new group for incest abuse and I don't know how I feel about it. I mean I know how I feel now, shit, but what am I looking for. I hate being seen, I don't want to be hurt again. I am so fed up of feeling scared, even when I sho...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by elmo
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Healing seems like such a long and lonesome process.... You can't get anyone else to do it for you or even speed it up. It's strange, isn't it? Sometimes I feel like I'm fine, truth is I've moved on a lot... Other times I feel like I'm really not there yet and it's a long long way off.
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by mandee32
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Hi Everyone I wanted to thank all of you who are reporting the new members who are posting spam like messages or soliciting on our site. It has definately made my job easier. Please keep up the good work! If you have any further concerns feel free to message me anytime. Just a reminder, after speaking with David Ilan we have both agree that Michael Jackson pictures posted on our Profile in an album is alright however out of respect for other users who may be trigger...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by littlechicky
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I just wanted to write a quick note to the member/s who are repeatedly posting spam entries here and ask them, respectfully, to stop. I find it inappropriate, irrelevant, insensitive and disrespectful for people to be advertising products, services etc. here given the nature of this site. If these members are here for genuine reasons and would like to reach out to fellow survivors and supporters to give and/or receive helpful advice, we will welcome you with open a...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by scars12
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I can't do this anymore. I feel so alone and all I want to do is make it go away for good. My life has become one sad mess. I don't even know how to talk to people anymore. They call to see how I am doing and all I can say is I’m fine. I am not okay and I don't want to pretend anymore. There really is no point to my existence. I have nothing to offer to the world and I feel I am only hurting the ones I love. My family has split down the middle because of my rape an...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by thetruthisnotwitty
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Last night was a hard night for the last day or so I've noticed that distant look in her eyes, noticed her shrugging off my questions about if she slept or not and deflecting my questions how how she was feeling. I knew that there was something going on in her head that she wasn't telling me and I feel helpless that I can't do anything about it. I've been trying to be more detached lately to just let her have her space when i can see shes hurting, instead of pushing fo...
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Posted 3 week(s) ago by LisasSister
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I would like to add people who request to be added to my group about incest/sexual abuse pregnancy but I cant figure out how.
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by UnforgivingLove
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I need to say now, I'm sorry. I lied about who I am. And it's about time that I admit it. If you're upset with me, I don't blame you one bit. If you decide to hate me for it, I don't blame you. But I'm not who you all think I am. I'm not new, like I said I was. I am an older member. Someone who was thought to be dead. HyeEunSuhKim. My name is not Mei Li, that was my best friend's name. I lied, and I'm sorry. I'd say it over and over again and...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by wouldyoulikeahug
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Yeah I can't remember if I updated everyone on here but my abuser got out of prison May 30th. He had a 14month sentence, with 7months in prison and 7 months out...although how the hell you can have 7 months out of prison is beyond me but still.... He has to check in with his parole officer every week and can face random visits from the er....what do you call them, like sex offender officer. And he's on the offender's list for 10 years I think. It's all a bit weird tho...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by nani
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wow its been forever!! well thought id come on and give this a real chance. alot has happened since i left this site. i never took the meds i was supposed to take. im actually doing great surprisingly. im healing on my own. unfortunately my relationship fell apart but its repairing itself little by little. ive changed alot and im very happy bout that =). im not dependent on anyone to help me anymore. ive gotten throu a huge bump in the road and i feel accomplished and amazing. yea theres sti...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by Rivera
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The band Mazoon Drive www.myspace.com/mazoondrive The art works: www.flickr.com/photos/rodrigoderivera I was sexual abused physical abused e psicologicall abused by my mother and my father. They abused me thru many forms of sexual torture when I was a child. I left home because of a fight with my mom who couldnt underestende my depression and so kept the violence on going thru psicologic traps. Im in treatment thru therapy and living alone, Im 24. ...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by poshlily
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I was always miserable until in my 30s I met through Kaiser Permanente a psychiatrist that changed my life. He heard my story and then said that he wanted to put me on 200 mg of Prozac a day. I didn't know what to say, so I said OK. I had told him that I had tried it before with the usual dose of 40 mg of Prozac a day and it had no effect. He then told me that tests of Prozac were tested on 'Normal' people a day, and that I wasn't normal. He ...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by wondergirl
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So alone People surround me Yet i feel so alone So Voiceless People try to help Words can't escape So unexpressed Thoughts bound within Memories trapped So numb Too much pain Where to begin? So much rage Anger explodes Frustration unfolds So shameful Nothing but hate Noone wothwhile So fearful Shaking, trembling No place is safe
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by efriend
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Although I'm not entirely ready to share my story with the world, I am proud to be here to be able to add my dot. :) I am one to just put things aside and just deal with it...and I have dealt with things my own way and am at peace with everything! :)
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by poshlily
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I just wanted to share with anybody reading my messages a few places I would go to escape the swirling events in my mind from my abuse. I didn't get to travel a whole lot, so I went to the following websites to visit places I've never been to, www.webshots.com . There are wallpapers and screensavers that are very soothing. It is a community sharing website. Also, when I need to hear music, my favorite station is www.last.fm . And for artwork on body ...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by mandee32
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So once again I receive notice that my son needs to be fully supervised with his friend when on June 15, 2010 there was a meeting that stated the contrary. The manager at the Society suggested the play between his friend was "not overly sexualized or inappropriate for his age." Now there is a letter to my son's friend's dad stating just the opposite, that they "encourage full supervision between the children". When does the re-victimization of our family stop?!! I will e...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by livingmylif3
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Someone once said “Everything happens for a reason”, but for the past 19 years I have been trying to figure out what are the reasons everything happens to me. Going back into the past reminds me of all the things I have been through and all the pain related to it. There are three main years that has hurt and impacted me the most; the elementary, middle and high school years. Elementary school is supposed to be your fun years, making lifetime friends and fun memories, but f...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by marfafilms
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I created an anti-rape/abuse petition on a site called Care2. The site is for "making a difference" in the world. There are other petitions and causes, but most revolve around animal rights and gay rights and save the rainforest type stuff. When I looked up a petition for anti-child abuse or anything like that, I found nothing. So I created one of my own. It is called Stop Abusing Us! and the target is 1,000,000 by December 31, 2014. I hope all of you will sign it and pass it on. Clic...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by Ducttapedrose
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Twisted Lies twisted Words surround Things moving Thoughts gone Nothing matters All is pain Bodies twisting Limbs surround Things moving Thoughts gone Nothing matters All is pain Lives twisting Death surrounds Lips moving Words gone Nothing matters All is pain Cant speak Can't think Can't move Can't breathe Pain surrounds Lies for truth Sleep Rest Death Hope N...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by strongmelanie
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July will be a year I have been on PWP. It has come by so fast, I remember the day I joined, I was so scared and so hurting. Wow, I have come so far since then. This site amongst everyone here kept me motivated to keep fighting and moving forward with my healing. I thank you for that. I hope I have helped others as well as you have helped me. Baby steps is all I took, everyday was different, some were big fucken steps to find that they were too much. As I close my eyes at night I think of al...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by apparently unaffected
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there are not many ways i can put this poetically. i know its tyring(sp?) to read me bitch and cry about the same thing. but then again who reads this anyways. there arent many different ways to put it. i am not ok. i miss her soo much i miss him soo much i wish just wish that someone could find a way to make it not hurt so bad anymore. i dont know how to make this better. the dreams kill me as painful as they are, ...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by poshlily
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There is a support group for people that have survived sexual trauma that has meetings worldwide like Alcoholics Anonymous. You can go there and be with people at 12 step meetings to share stories, get it out of your system, or whatever you need to do to get well. I went for years and it really helped me. And its free. This was before the Internet. They have a website now. It is http://www.siawso.org/ . I just wanted to share that gem with whoever n...
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Posted 4 week(s) ago by strugglinghealinghopeing
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I dont know about you guys, but lately ive been thinking...did it really happen? Anyone else feel the same? ! Im starting to think since no one believes me it didnt even happen, and this is just some weird dream..Like i keep wanting to pinch myself & i can never wake up! Im going crazy with the police and them changing their minds more then they change their undies! All i can think is GET USED TO IT! THIS IS LIFE F*%* IT!...but then i try to think positive, hey if this didnt happen.. then ma...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by poshlily
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And this can be girlfriends too. When a person goes through childhood sexual abuse it makes them isolated. It happened while they were alone, the person endures it alone, and nobody can relate to it because it didn't happen to them. I think all survivors experience a disconnect throughout their lives communicating with people. They don't get enough space, the right kind of space, or nobody understands them. Lots of religious zealots consider this is de...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by ConcreteGirl
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I joined this on a whim after reading an article about the project. I've only shared my abuse with a few people very close to me, and only because it's been absolutely necessary. No one knows my story, only that it happened. I'm going crazy having nobody I can share with. The anonymity of this site interests me; we all need support and can't always get that support through the people in our lives. I want to talk with people who are like me. There a...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Lynnw92
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Hi. 3 years ago (when I was 14) I was sodomized by my stepbrother. We are the same age. For months before the rape actually happened, he would touch me and make me touch him. Now, years later (I'm 17 now), I haven't told ANYONE about what happened. Ever since it happened, I've been suffering with depression, tried to commit suicide, and been self-harming. My depression caused me to miss A LOT of school and even switch schools. I've been seeing the same therapist for 2 ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by judithkristell789
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i was raped when i was little. Ive tried to heal but i just cant everything reminds me of my childhood. now i just ignore the pain and live my life with fake smiles and laughs. i have to nieces i love them so much i would give my life for them. last year my niece was molested by my stepbrother. we called the cops and right now his in juvi until his 18. i always said that ill be there to protect them but now i feel like i failed. i feel like if everything was my fault. i guess i didnt p...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Alexander2010
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this is a repressed memory....i just discovered it on the morning June 28, 2010.....at eight years old......my aunt raped me....i'll tell you the story.... it was so long away....she did it four times between 8 and 10 years old....she was 12 or 13......the first time... .... was on the bed....in her room....watchin cartoons....im 8 by this point... She walks over.....climbs on the bed....after turning the tv off... She starts making all kinds of weird motions on me......
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by AnnieRae
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So when I first joined PWP I met a girl, same age as me and sort of close in location; SmileItsAly' (Aly) We talked and talked and later became friends, I began emailing her once she told me she was leaving PWP for personal reasons when we emailed she began to act strange and she bounced from family member to friend back home and as of right now she is scared and confused and no longer with anyone she knows. She told me the other day her and her mom and step dad got into a fight a...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by demii
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some days i wake up drenched in sweat, and aches and pains, it was another flashback, i remember this one so vividly. ciggerette smoke brought the thought into my head, thats what he smelled of. smoke. and he was breathing heavly on me. i remember when he kissed me thr first time, infront of my brother. i never do that, but i was afraid he would hurt me if i said no, or backed away. so i let him, that was one of the signs, but i paid no attention, *i remember seeing him barge through my door...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by wondergirl
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SO many voices in my head.Just give up now, let this life end. Day and night, their always around. When will these thoughts come to an end!! I tried to kill myself, yes its true. I was hospitalised for taking some pills. I must stay with a friend, who keeps a close eye. Some people come see me, to see im alright. I tell them some lies, i tell them that I'm alright. But deep down inside, I wish it would end! I tried to suffoc...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Tigerlily
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I haven't been online here for awhile, things were going ok except now they're not and this is the only place I could think to come where people would understand. My body seems to be taking the punishment for all the abuse at the moment and is not fun at all. I cannot walk very far as I have got Achilles Tendonosis on the foot and I was born with hip displacia which is now causing a lot of pain and discomfort. The rest of my body is screaming with emotional pain. I'm not sleep...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by marfafilms
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What happende in 2007 haPPENee threr yeasr ago today, I amn only onlune for a minute,. I klove you akl
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by kimrchrdsn
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Hiding in the Rain One small child with misplaced dolls and teddy bears neglected and collecting dust, lying within a blanket that bares no sympathy or protection from shameless imprudent lust. For mislaid hands preying on the hearts and minds of the meek, as the dark shadowy figure comes in to rob youthful sleep. At night, you lay there very still and pray for the safety of your brothers and sisters. All in all, above th...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by marfafilms
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Several months ago, I created a website to house my Entries away from PWP. I wanted a place to tell my story and talk about things and wanted the freedom of my own site to do it. PWP is an amazing site, but it feels confined. I post an Entry, and it gets lost in the thousands of Entries one the site (not putting any one down). So I created a website from Weebly.com, a site where you can create and design your own website. I am always trying to tell everyone about PWP, so I dedicated an entir...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by hawk
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Sorry that I haven't been around . But have met this terrific lady and after a whirlwind romance , find ourselves engaged . Am one lucky dude ! will try and be online when I can . please take care all Gordon .
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Help
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hello, i know i havent been on in a while and im sorry... i hope everyone is well! its a very cold day today...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by lasergirl
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I prepaid for a copy of the drawing back in January of 2008 and it's now June of 2010! Anyone else prepay and feelign disappointed? I just really didnt think it would take this long! I understand these things take time, but I can see David is working on other stuff (including the MJ tribute) I just think it is not fair to take money adn then not have a definitel release date fro the artwork.
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by UnforgivingLove
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My Uncle is not the most kind person out there. He`s not the worst, though either. I often lately have dreams about him, and what he`s done to me. BEFORE I go further, I am going to warn you now: THIS STORY MAY TRIGGER. If you are easily triggered, I do NOT advise reading any further. There were days when he would allow me to spend time with my friends instead of with him. I liked those days very much. But it was on the condition that I never told what was going on. It was also ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by leahslife
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well here goes, this week i have moved back to were my abuse started and my abuser still lived, im stupid i know i have done this to try and save my marriage but after just a few days i have already seen my abuser face to face. no words were exchanged between us but know he knows i am back. i am worried after pressing charges and the case against him been dropped that he is going to try and get some form of revenge. i have three wonderful children that in know feel i have put in ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by nicholusbowick
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tears now streaming down my face wishing to leave this horrible place heart is breaking mind is shaking thoughts are racing pain is what i'm facing
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by southernbelle
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Hi everyone. I joined this site when it first started and must say that I am a little bit disappointed that the drawing still isn't even near being done. I was wondering if there was any news on when it would probably be finished... or any updates I missed. Thanks!
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by UnforgivingLove
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I wondered how did I end up in an arranged marriage with my Uncle. Well, the story is a short one. My father was drunk and he gambled me away. There`s nnot much more to it than that. When I found out this was how it happened, I did feel fury. But I vowed I would get my way out. I just had to plan out how. So I thought, and I thought. Yet I could think of nothing. Then I realized. If I were able to prolong it enough that I could get married BEFORE I was supposed to marry him, I would be just ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by nicholusbowick
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seems like past month or so i've been lost not sure where my mind has been
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by poshlily
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Thanks everybody for the warm welcome. I am also here for you if you need me. I have alot to share, and I've taken a warrior stance thanks to our earth mother goddess. You may not hear from me average things, but I am an innovator and warrior. I fight for ourselves and won't give up. We are all (hopefully) survivors and (hopefully) thrivers. I FIGHT!!!! P/S I don't want to give off the feeling that I go around fighting everybo...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Boshemia
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Victim, survivor, thriver... If you have read any amount of my writing at all, you've no doubt heard me use that phrase a few times. It might not mean much to you, but for me that phrase is magical. It means overcoming so many things in life, it means freedom, it means strength. How exactly did I become a victims advocate? The short story is that I took a two week course in advocacy, got my certificate and became a volunteer for our local crisis center, but the journey that le...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by judithkristell789
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I’m 15 years old about to be 16 in a couple of days; I was molested when I was five and 14 and raped at six by my cousins and my uncle. My mom left me and my siblings with my grandma when I was five for almost a year. When I first started kindergarten my grandma sometimes came to pick me up other times my aunt did. I remember one time my aunt was cooking and I was in the bedroom alone when my cousin came in and forced me to give oral sex I did because I was scared. This happened f...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by poshlily
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My biological father used to abuse me when I was just a baby and toddler with his two best friends, a college professor at Morehead, KY, and financiar in Ashland, KY. My older sister, whose father is different from mine, confirmed this by my descriptions of the monsters that would hurt me when I was little due to my nightmares. I can only remember the experiences through nightmares. My mother found out and it led to a nasty divorce with him kidnapping me from an orpha...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by thetruthisnotwitty
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Thank you, to everyone who has messaged me in these last few days. Is it weird that I feel like in many ways I need to heal? Being with someone and really loving someone who is dealing with such a painful and terrible thing is just hard sometimes. I could walk away whenever I want and sometimes I really think about it. But I don't, because after that the next thing I think is that’s what’s she's used to, that’s what she expects, she expects me to ju...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by thetruthisnotwitty
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I'm here because about seven months ago I met a girl and fell in love (just like that really). She was abused at home I don’t think sexually but it is not a great situation for her and she has never felt truly safe at home. Then when she was young she was molested by a teacher a few times at one of her after school activities she never told her parents and since then has been some other sexual situations where she was made to feel helpless and out of control. Going to col...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Alone
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Hello my dear supportive friends. First and foremost I must apologize for being absent from this site and my life in general. This is truly where I need to be. Trying to put the pieces back together. Trying to make sense of ALL that has happened and most of all, try to take back MY LIFE. Whatever that may be. So many things to share and not knowing where to turn to first. August 2007 I was brutally assaulted both physically, mentally and sexually by ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by strongmelanie
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I wrote an entry on how I became in contact with my long lost family. This is my fathers side of the family. When I told my secret at 13 years of age to my fathers side, they disowned him as well and have not heard from him either. It has been 24 years since I have seen or heard from any of my family members on this side. My secret became something I dreaded and that was I lost all contact with my family. A lot of lost years that was not called for. Don't know what or why this...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by nocomment
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OMG ok so i am in florida now we flew in this morning we are on a summer fam vacation we are going to the mouse in his house as my sweet cute NIGHTMAREISH sisters keep telling me (i have to share a room!) why do my parents get their own room? SOOOOOO NOT FAIR! lol ok so can anyone tell me what i need to do /see atwalt disney world bush gardens and sea world?!?!?! any hooooo gtg ttyl bye
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by TS1Survivor
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by mandee32
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I'm writing an entry about the appointment scheduled to determine if my daughter's abuse could be verified after several years of disclosures and since it's still in the investigating process I can't disclose too much publicly. I can say however that I'm not disappointed with the outcome but a bit standoffish. I don't trust the Child Protective Services here in my city and province and given my past experiences with them I believe that is a normal reaction...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by NeroTouNnsiou
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I can't do this anymore, my mind is just running all the time. Every time I try to forget up pops feelings from my past. I say past but it feels as much present as it does past, if not even more. I don't remember feeling this much when I was being abused, in fact I don't remember feeling anything at all I was numb and naive; two things I'm yearning for right at this moment. You know what I wish I was still that kid, a corrupted but still so innocent kid where a bike and s...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by marfafilms
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To give you an idea of how small the area was I was at and had the panick attack, just look at this. Here is the Google Streeview of where this was held at. The blue thing to the left side is the pavilion I took refuse at. (if all you see is code, click here ). There were over 200 people cramed into that small building. width="700" height="394" frameborder="0" scrolling="no" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" src="http://maps.google.com/maps?f=q&source=embed&hl=en&geocode=&q=Nort...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by marfafilms
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“ Can I borrow your phone to take a picture and send it to my girlfriend?” “Why does she need another picture of you?” “Her newest picture of me was from Christmas Eve.” “Alright. Here you go.” That was the excuse I gave Coach Leong, an elder at my church, so he’d let me use his phone. I told him I was only taking the picture so Lyndsey would have a new picture of me. Yes, I sent it to her. But I wanted to take the pi...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by problemsolved
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Dissappointments Scenario 1 Stuck at walmart with my mom grabbing bags walking out.. old couple stops and says "I bet she's a good little helper" Mom smiles and says thanks I look at her in disbelief How old am I, 8? Do you like people thinking that I'm eight years old? "Kristin, their just an old couple." I dont give a flying frap if they are an old couple, you could have said, thanks, but she's 20 Thats right, Im ...
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Tamzin
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I can spew a rainbow, I can get you out, I can paint the toilet seat, with that there is no dough, Watch you come out of me, like rain from clouds, Washing my dirt away, with every gagging sound.
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Posted 1 month(s) ago by Tamzin
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I don’t really know why I’m putting this out there, I guess its cause I know no one else really has time the to look over it, to really see me, not sure I would even want them too. I remember now, I remember what you all did, I remember all them years ago, when I was a stupid kid, I believed every word each one of you said, I believed it was OK and right, though it filled me with so much dread, I remember like it was this morning you telling me it was a game, ...
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