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Posted 1 year(s) ago by scars12
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I haven't been on here in over a year but I feel at a loss and I always found support here. I am remembering things from my high school years I wish I could forget. I was abused as a child but I thought it ended at 12 now through therapy I realized it didn't end till almost 17. I want it all to end. My life is not going as planned and I am losing my fight. I have nothing to offer. I think of self-harm and other things. I just hurt.
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Posted 1 year(s) ago by hannahmariestegall
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it was going so well my life was turning around. thought maybe i could just start over. but no you wouldnt let me feel joy just for a mer second now im stuck back into depression. im cutting again just so i dont feel emotional pain. you have two haunt me. just let me go so i can move on. ive become a loner again. my fiance is never around because you wont let him. god i tried so hard but i keep being pulled back to you. just leave me be. because of you im screwing up my life just ...
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Posted 1 year(s) ago by Avi013
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The nightmares have been so bad I feel like i'm in a constant nightmare and I'm not allowed to wake up .... It was made worse today when the police turned up at my door... I don't cope with cops One of the"Uncles" dad used to take me to was a cop and thats what the nightmares are mainly about atm and seeing them today coming to my door and waking me up at 830 in the morning to question me about getting pregnant to dad.... cutting is the only way I can try to wake myself up fro...
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Posted 2 year(s) ago by ShatteredSoul
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Twenty-six years old and still cutting. Twenty-six years old and without a job once again. I despise my reflection, am absoulely sickened by the woman who stares back at me. I fight the urge to not cut into my face. I've been losing weight again, fighting the ure to not purge. So ugly, I am so ugly, fat, stupid. My boyfriend, I don't know what he sees in me. What kills me is he was married, dated this woman for years, still loves her, but she killed herself one year ago last month....
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Posted 2 year(s) ago by ShatteredSoul
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For a small time, I felt "normal". I felt as if I were becoming an adult. I felt "happy". I was engaged, I had the engagement party, the friends gasping over the ring, the bridal magazines leaning haphazardly, about to spill off of my dining table. The discussions of a wedding date, wanting to go against the white dress, and wear a black one. Yet, over time it began feeling fake. I began sleeping with my ring off, because it felt so heavy. Then during the day when I was h...
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Posted 2 year(s) ago by gabriella
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I try to stead my shaking hand, I need to concentrate my young mind, My broken hurt heart is racing at the speed of light, I am impatient, I can’t wait for the relief I will get. As the powerful shining blade that is in my hand, Cuts into my young weak skin, The red blood that comes out starts racing down my skin, I feel like a thousand lies and hurt, Have all come out at once. They give me one moment of peace, Of relaxation of relief to my mind and ...
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Posted 3 year(s) ago by Rebekah
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My mom told me to go kill myself. I want to do it. That she didn't believe me. Made me want to cut. That I was a bitch. My life story.
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Posted 3 year(s) ago by Rebekah
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So apparently I have not been on here in over 4 months. A lot has happened. I moved. Again. I am more depressed. I think about suicide everyday. My parents have no idea. My SI has gotten worse. I just dont understand the point to my life anymore.
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Posted 3 year(s) ago by ShatteredSoul
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I am currently living on my own, which I have not done for years. I have either lived with a boyfriend or up until recently my mother and sister. Now I have my own apartment. I thought I might have problems, just because I am not used to living on my own, but nothing like this. I find that I am once again sleeping during the day (as I have after my rapes), so I can stay up at night, since I am scared. I also find that I am once again falling into my horrible habit of not eating. It...
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